Dear Mom,

Hey! How’s that place you are in now? Is it beautiful? Is it quiet? Does it make you calm and happy? I guess it’s a “YES”. Mom, can I go there? I am really confused now. I don’t know where to go. I don’t know what I should do. I wanna do something different but things around me seem to disagree. It seemed that they want me to stay where I am now. But,Mom, I am not happy here anymore. I loss my motivation to continue. I become a zombie, forced by the environment to move.

Mom, why is everything around me turned into a total opposite of what I believed in? Why are the things I used to hold on to became a part of lies? Am I still going to believe them? Do I still have to hol;d on to those things when I know they’re not meant to happen? How can I keep on living in this world when I know that what I am walking now are all lies?

Help me,Mom.. I need your hug.. I miss you badly..

Missing you so badly,